C'EST LA MODE

Blog transfer

2011-10-05T12:36:00.000-04:00

Hey y'all.

So I finally taught myself wordpress / PHP and I have moved my blog to a new location. To all my followers: you're still connected to the new blog even though it's not hosted or connected by blogger. Please take a look and let me know what you think of my work!

c'est-la-mode.net

AN A+ WEEKEND

2011-08-30T11:13:00.038-04:00

Jake tubbing on Seneca Lake '11

So the family reunion was fun! It was great seeing my family that's from Ohio. I have missed out on 2-3 times to see them in the last couple of years so it was really good to finally get up there to visit. It stinks that they live over 5 hours away; it's so hard to find the time and money to get down there. Especially money. But it was good to see them regardless!

Myself & Jake @ Baxters / Proof

My life has been like a roller coaster of random emotions that pertain to not only my life outside of my job but also my life inside of my job. I wasn't able to really control them and I let them spiral out of control and effect not only my job but also my life. Jake and I spent a great weekend together and although we have had multiple talks about not letting things get to me and just being happy it wasn't soaking it. I guess I needed more than that when it came to talking about this subject. I'm truly blessed. This weekend he made it clear to me that if I keep this up it can only lead to us being distant (which is a fact) HOWEVER he also stated "but no matter what I'm here to help you. What can we do to help you and make this better?" He consistently put us into one person and made me feel like he wasn't letting me do this on my own. Man ... What kind of guy does this?! I've been so rude and so distant to him when all he's done since the day we got together was be there for me. This weekend really opened my eyes. Why be upset... Why be miserable.. Why be depressed? I have God, a wonderful family, friends and not to mention the most wonderful bestfriend a person could ever ask for and recieve. So. Now that that is behind me, lets move on- shall we?

Jake & I at IRONMAN
Louisville KY 2011

Jake and I ate at proof over the weekend and it was SO yummy! I used to work there; 3 years exactly. It was nice to show the boyfrannndd one of my most favorite places to work and eat at. I think he really enjoyed it! What's not to enjoy is how I see proof. We also went to the chef of proofs new restaraunt - the Garage bar. Also a great looking place with yummy drinks. I had a basil drink and he had a whiskey one both were really good! I also was able to view my first IRONMAN marathon. OMGosh these people are crazy! (in a good way) I can't imagine trying to do 140.6 total in swimming, biking, and running. It was amazing to see the endurance of these dedicated people and it really makes you not want to eat like a fatty or sit on the couch! Haha ... Inspired me. It was really nice to have this whole weekend basically to just myself and Jake. Although we did go out some this weekend it just felt more like ... US and focused on me and him. I loved it. In our entire relationship I would have to say that last weekend was my favorite so far. Well, other than our hunting weekends.

Jackie & I @ the
Zombie Walk 2011

** zombie plank **

OH I almost forgot! Not only did I have an amazing time at the Lady A concert a few weeks back as well as some other random things I got to do with Jake and my friends but I also didn't miss the Zombie Walk this year! It's every year on August the 29th - basically you dress up like a zombie and walk up and down bardstown road. They actually shut down some of the streets and allow everyone to walk up and down freely. It's a little bizzare and almost Halloween like but it's so much fun if you aren't creeped out by that stuff and if you enjoy being silly. I went with my best friend Jackie and her fiance as well as two other friends. I have at least 4 more people I knew go out there but I was unable to see them ... Boo! But again it was a TON of fun!!! ... Oh and for your viewing pleasure - Zombie plank. BaHa!

Beth & I @ Baxters

Jake & I @ the LADY A concert

I have traffic school tomorrow ... BLEH ... and Jake is staying in Bloomington, IN for work so I guess it works out any way because I'll be consumed for 4 hours in this boring traffic school and he'll be busy any way. I hope being there gives him a little breather even though he's working. Speaking of Bloomington - We'll be headed that way this weekend. I was going to go to Nashville with my IPC girls but I can't really afford it and I don't want to go and not be able to really eat and drink and stuff ... Hopefully we'll have another one of those soon when I have money to spend- So because I can't go to that Jake is hosting/going to an IU Alumni party in Bloomington and he invited me to go! I just need to get some IU gear ... I only have one Indiana shirt and ya know ... I'm a girl, I need something different. I guess I'll have to look around!

BACK FROM 1 VACAY ... TIME FOR ANOTHER!

2011-08-02T13:02:00.001-04:00

Jess, Me, Nat, & Kayla
Out at a bar in Naples

Back from Florida and I wish I wasn't! ... I already miss the beach. Anywho. Everyone seemed to have a really good time and it was nice to actually hang out with the boyfriend as well as friends and only focus on relaxing. If anyone has keep up with me you'd know I'm over the top stressed and it's boiling over. I have no way of keeping it down and it sucks! I did get some good news last night so hopefully that'll work out. Our group to FL was all couples and we did a lot of girl time and then group time as well as one on ones with the boyfrands. Dinners were so much fun!

Jake & I

While the boys played golf the girls usually laid out for awhile either on the beach or at the pool and then we'd go get lunch and shop on the little strip malls out on 5th street in Naples. It was a lot of fun and I created a lot of great memories with these gals and gents. I had the best rissotto I've ever had there. Even though there was no meat in it- I would have to say it was by far the best! That's one great thing about traveling is the different foods and different atmosphere. Not to mention the fact that you don't have to stress or think about "reality." I am crossing my fingers for that to change- however. This was also Jake & my first vacation together which I have to say... He's really fun to be with at all times! Sometimes people stress while being on vacay or in general; which I'm guilty of but Jake is beyond different from this. He rarely lets 'things in life' get him down and when I say rarely I mean out of 100% of his time and emotion 1% will go to stressing out loud / venting / being upset. It's like he's some super hero of non-stress and always-happiness person.... If there was ever such a character? ... Haha wow I'm really losing it today! But yes, we had a great time and Jake made my trip beyond exciting and enjoyable. Without him there I wouldn't of had much of a vacation and I wouldn't have been all smiles the entire time. Thanks Jake :)

The 2 K's ;)
Kaala *me & Kayla

This weekend Jake & I are headed to Ohio for a family reunion. I've missed the last 2-or 3 times going to OH and I feel terrible for it. I am very excited to go this weekend; although we're still both exhausted and worn out from FL and from getting in at 2AM from our flight and then our drive back into Louisville but again, I've missed out a few times going recently and I wouldn't give up going this weekend because I'm tired. No more excuses. I'm glad Jake gets to go as well :) My whole family already loves him and the funny thing is - they haven't even met him! ... Any who, I'm sure I'll update after we get back from OH but wish my luck on this week and wish me luck for this POSSIBLE opportunity that could def change my life for the BETTER! *crossing fingers*

VACAY!

2011-07-26T08:46:00.001-04:00

Jake and I are leaving for INDY tonight after work to sleep over at a friends house then, in the morning we're all heading to the airport to go to FLORIDA! I'm so excited! Other than financials getting me down - who knows if I'll make it to next Friday but I guess I should just enjoy the vacay and then worry on that- right? Excited :)

Backstreets Back? ....

2011-07-21T14:23:00.008-04:00

So I did something that I normally wouldn't do. I went and saw the BSBoys last night. The only reason anyone could ever get me to go to something like this or even consider spending a night of my time on it is if everything was FREE. Free is the correct word for last night. I went and saw the BSBoy's and New Kids on the Block (I think?) last night and everything was freeeeeeeeeeeeee! I got in free, we sat in a box suite... For free and food and alcohol was FREE!!! I like that word a lot- Free. I can't say that they were all that terrible... But I did have influences that night and everything was of no charge so I can't say I enjoyed my night because of them. I think it was all the perks through out the night!

Jake & I at Rachel's
wedding

I also got to see my little friend Rachel get married! She's so little and precious- I freakin' love her :) I can't believe she's offical now- like to the public. (You'd know what I meant if you knew the situation) It's crazy but all of my friends are starting to get engaged/married. It seems like last year everyone was single or having flings and now it's all rings, weddings, and babies! Ahhhh!! haha But that's ok- I'm happy for all of them. Speaking of weddings my friend Jenny just got engaged today!!! :)

Justin Moore Concert
Erinn, Amy, Me

I've had so much fun this summer. Between going out with friends, doing fun and different things with Jake, and so much more. I've been craving hunting!!! If you all didn't know Jake taught me how to hunt not too long ago for Turkey season and ever since then I've wanted to buy my own gear, learn how to shoot a bow, etc. Right now I shoot a shotgun and while fun and all I want to shoot a bow. Something about archery just amazes me and makes me feel cool. Yeah. I said it. Cool. Haha. Speaking of summer- 4th Street does these "hot country nights" where local, popular, and underground bands play on the street of 4th. After we usually go out to the bars which are located right there on 4th Street as well! Last week some of my girlfriends and I went out to watch Justin Moore play! It was a lot of fun and I look forward to having more of those nights. :)

Drinking plunty of these
in FLORIDA!

I also get to look forward to FLORIDA coming up. Jake and I are leaving for FLORIDA. I'm not sure if we are flying on Wednesday morning or if we're driving up to meet Natalie and Matt to ride down all 4 of us Tuesday night. I guess I'll have to press to find out our plans. I've also gotta press to find out about this family reunion the next weekend. It's Jake's birthday weekend and I'm not sure if someone if throwing him a party or not. I'd like to go to the reunion but I don't want to miss Jake's birthday. Maybe we'll find a way to go up there for a day and then head out to INDY or something for his birthday. It would be nice if things would work out that way. I'm pumped for these next two weeks! Going to be filled with FUN!

Honesty?

2011-07-13T15:57:00.000-04:00

It's so funny how things work out sometimes. When you feel like everything is just about perfect- you're getting yourself to a place that feels right. These moments and times in peoples lives seem to be about the time that someone or something messes it up. Because I can't directly speak of this issue going on in my life I'll try to be as discriptive as possible without stating the actual issue. I find it really funny when people think they can lie and get away with something from over a year ago over something so petty and with no evidence. What are you try to prove? What are you trying to get out of this? I no longer have any of what you claimed I *****. So if I don't have that and on top of that more things were taken away from me that I rightfully worked for how're you going to send someone on me to "investigate" this? You're not smart, you've never been smart and this just proves that you're an idiot. I recorded everything from the situation; documented, documents, print outs, conversations, explinations, all of it and I'm glad I keep it since this initially happened. I didn't do anything and at this point I'd love for this to end. That's all I care about; nothing else but to have this over with. What a headache and an annoyance.

Any who. Life is great and things are going well other than what is started above however because it really has no direct concern to me other than the fact it is an annoyance I can't really let it get to me- It's obvious that someone is struggling and looking for any source possible to help in the struggle and unfortunetly this person who is going to be speaking with me and seeing my 'evidence' and case is going to dig deeper and will end up finding more things within the situation that don't even pertain to me that will lead to the whole situations demize - but again, without affecting me.

(long pause..................)

Just spoke with the person I needed to as well as another person and all is okay :) for the fact I didn't do anything and I have wittness that know and saw exactly what went on! ... Phew I feel better getting that all squared away!

Onto better things. My boyfriend has been in Bloomington IN/here back and forth and is really stressed... I wish I could make him feel better when he gets home or is gone or whatever he needs. I try and do little things or be as laid back and as relaxed around him as possible but if anyone knows me they know that drama isn't far behind. It's sad really. I hate drama/don't cause drama yet it follows me no matter what I do or where I go. Shame.

Alright .... Well ... I need a drink!

Hot Hot Summer Time...

2011-07-08T16:51:00.000-04:00

Man... Summers been a really hot one. It's been in the 90's even when it rains here. I love the summer but it's so back in forth. When it's cold I want it to be hot and when it's REALLY hot I want it to be colder. I do love this warm weather, sun kissed skin, dresses, flip-flops, ahhhh love it!

Today is Kaitlin Marshall's birthday. She's finally 21!!! Yay for my young friends, haha. I can't wait to see everyone and celebrate. It is also Amy's 21st birthday as well... Man do I have little youngins as friends.

Today at work has been utterly stressful. Everyone I think forgot it is Friday. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks it's Monday today because they're sure acting like it. I'm so done with people being mean for no reason especailly because I'm still trying to learn everything and it's hard when I constantly get calls while doing other things. Work is fine but I really can't wait to move to Bloomington, IN if that's still in my future. I hope it is because it'd be awesome to get away from Louisville at least for a little while if not for good. Not because I dislike Louisville I've just lived here all my life and I'm ready to "start my life" which may seem weird because I've already started it but I'm ready to start fresh and new and with someone I love. Louisville is the same old same old... Can't hate on it though, still love the old 'Ville.

I'mmmmm Backkkk

2011-07-07T12:53:00.002-04:00

Holy Bananas!

It's been such a long time since I last blogged. Sorry for that :/ life got a bit complicated and I lost track of this blog. I've had a lot of changes happen in my life from the last time I blogged. To start I am at a different job- I currently work for Oxmoor Toyota by St. Matthews Mall as their BDC Coordinator. So far so good! I can't say I have much to complain about there.

I also ran into a wonderful guy. His name is Jake Powers and he's probably the most amazing person I've ever met and the only best friend I've had where I've felt complete. I can't describe how he makes me feel or how content I feel but I can tell you this- I am beyond happy and truly blessed he's mine. <3

Onto not so great news... I lost a great friend on Monday; the 4th. Although these last few years we haven't been as close to one another I still feel like I lost someone close and dear to me. Monday on the 4th of July my good friend David Whitney lost his life due to a car accident. He was the first guy I had ever worked with and the first friend to show me that life isn't all that bad. David's character was one of the kindest, free spirited, and most funny person to ever impact my life. I remember how we used to play "gummy bear basketball" at Cold Stone Creamary. We used to set up a trash can far away from the process line and then we'd shoot for points and any gummy bear that went into the trash can you'd get a certain amount of points. I also remember the times he'd bring in his drummers stool to sit on while working ... lol. We used to go to concerts together as well and the one time I actually went to a concert - Story of the Year I recieved a terrible concusion from a crowd surfer and I remember David calling my father to let him know what had happened. I still remenise on those memories often; even before the world lost him on Monday. I know God is with him and he's much better off there but the world wasn't ready to lose him and I wasn't ready for the many things that I would of said to him if I knew his life here on Earth was limited. It's sad how things like this happen and how this is when friends pull togther most and when we think of others more than ourselves. If only our minds were wired to do this regardless... Miss you David Whitney. Forever rest in peace and I LOVE YOU buddy. His viewing is at 2PM today... That's where I'll say my goodbyes and hope for the best for his family, other friends, and girlfriend. My prayers are with you all.

I'll post again soon- hope everyone likes the new layout and the fact that I'm back!

Long Time No See!

2010-11-05T15:49:00.004-04:00

Hello everyone,
It's been way too long since I've last posted. Life has changed quite a bit since the last time I wrote... My so called "amazing boyfriend" broke up with me. I should have read the signs and followed my heart when I told myself and others I wanted to break up with him but I guess the feelings I felt I had towards him "love" was not love at all but comfortableness and a sense of place. I don't know why I only hung onto that when I wasn't happy either and I was sick of not being wanted, or invited, or cared for and treated the way I wanted to be treated. I guess people make you do dumb things sometimes. He even had the nerve to email me after all he did - I deleted it. When I left and saw him for the last time after he crushed me by his actions I said "you will not see or talk to me anymore in life - I hope you're happy from here on out because I didn't provide that happiness for you. I wish you the best." and left. I've never spoken or seen him since and this is actually the first time I've talked about it in awhile... I guess I'm only doing it for the update because I sure as hell have no feelings left for him or anything around him. Done.

I started working for this company a few months back - I love it. It's called Recovercare and it's amazing. The people are awesome and the company is steady and always moving which is a great thing! I am always busy and always on the go and needed (except I have down time right now at work because I am working the front desk while Jennifer does mail .... lol so busy majority of the time!). Not only is the company great but it's finally Friday and I have weekends off! Yay for Friday! I'm going out tonight with some friends and on Saturday I get to go to Churchill Downs which is a horse track here in Louisville to watch the breeders cup. My friends Jennifer, who I work with, got free tickets right by the finish line!!! So excited to dress up with her and go do that.

Well for now I am going to go! But I just wanted to update and let everyone know that I am not dead :} I will be updated the entire page so I do apologize for broken links and images - they will be fixed soon! I'll also post pictures from the track a little later on!

Have a great weekend everyone <3

Weekend Joy!

2010-05-25T14:47:00.005-04:00

I had the a wonderful week/end! I went to Wick's pizza for the 10 dollar all you can eat and drink last Wednesday and it was actually quite fun. I won the limbo contest and had a ton of fun just hanging out with my friends.

Friday I ended up going out to the old Molly's with Will's cousin Morgan and some of her boyfriend Jeremy's friends - again, SUPER fun! Even though work can not be so good and sometimes home life can be boring and feel lonely I am really quite enjoying my life. My boyfriend and I are doing fabulous and the last two week/ends we've spent so much time with each other and it has been so wonderful!!!

ఐ లవ్ లవ్ లవ్ విల్ బకేర్. హి'స అం అమజింగ్ !!!

Saturday one of Will's Phi Kappa Tau buddies got married and their wedding was gorgeous! Not to mention a ton of free alcohol and the company of many, many great people. I even got to see certain others that I thought hated me by now but to my surprise they don't hate me at all- just doubting other situations. That made me :) not only that but I went with Will and I love him so very much :}

Until next weekend - memorial weekend!

Twitter & MySpace

2010-05-04T01:52:00.011-04:00

My company has been all into this social networking lately in order to get more buzz about our new and old products and the company as well. I decided to take a look and sign up for majority of them since I will be having to blog / tweet / etc. The links to my other social marketing sites are below:

http://myspace.com/kaa_ness .
http://facebook.com/kaala.braune .
http://twitter.com/kaalabraune .

I love social marketing : )

Any who.

Life has been pretty great. I've been going out a lot and just trying to enjoy the last few years of feeling young and having little responsi

bility. I currently am employed with a wine company called Maverick Wine Group --- I'm not sure how I feel about this job anymore. I feel like the promises I receive will never come and if they ever did it would be years down the road. I also feel that the pay is very crummy for the effort and stress I put into it. I deal with angry customers all day and unorganized emails, phone calls, and customer service. I hate it. Very frustrating. I need something and I need it quick.

I bought a new car though....

I love it : ) My little mini cooper. I pay monthly on it and I have enjoyed every moment I've owned it. Soooo... I will update again soon- I'm super tired and I have to work in the am. Bleh. Enjoy some updated photos below and I'll post soon!

ps Pray for Will's mom- she broke her elbow and went to the hospital tonight. She's in so much pain- she'll be fine but please pray for her recovery. ♥

Racin' Fun

2010-04-04T23:06:00.011-04:00

My girlfriends and I went to the track in Lexington on Saturday. Keeneland. It's so beautiful and we had such a great time! I plan on going there again this weekend and hopefully win some money! I spent 4 $ and made 1 $ haha ... -3$ OUCH ;) My weekend coming up is going to be very eventful! My best friend Megan Coleho is having a birthday party this weekend which should be very fun!!! She is a great girl. We went to the boat in Indian last night to gamble- Megan didn't make it in... Little girl got to drunkie haha LOVE YOU! ...

I'm also going to Wick's pizza (Wednesday night 10$ all you can drink and eat) on Wednesday with Amy and we're also going out again on Saturday for a girls 21st birthday.

Keeneland SATURDAY!!!! Again so excited.

H A P P Y E A S T E R !

2010-04-04T23:02:00.001-04:00

H A P P Y st. Patrick's Day

2010-03-17T00:13:00.015-04:00

don't drink more than I would ;)

YAY!!!!!!

2010-03-11T18:28:00.009-05:00

I'm excited for tonight! My girlfriends and I are going out and shutting down the town ;)

LOVE ♥

Update-a-ronie!

2010-03-11T00:11:00.007-05:00

Heads up on a little update. I haven't updated in quite awhile!

Life: Life is pretty great. I've been hanging out with some new friends I meet a little while back and they're a blast! Will's cousin; Morgan, her 21st birthday was last weekend and we had so much fun! I meet a lot of her friends and I really love hanging out with them! It's crazy how certain people make you feel a certain way. However... It sucks that certain people I thought were close to me aren't. People made that very clear to me on my birthday which only Will, his friends, and a handful of mine (the ones I haven't seen in forever and don't hang out with frequently) made me feel more welcome and move loved than my "best friends" and "close friends." I decided that was enough for me to decide it wasn't worth working for. I don't give up- that's not what I'm saying. I'd gladly be there for them if they needed it but as for going out of my way and having to try so hard to be their friends- I can't do it. I shouldn't have to try that hard any way. Sorry RAMBLING!!! hahahha- :)))

Love my new friends!

Love: MMMM my love life! It is always great! Will is the best thing that has happened to me ever in my love life! He's for sure the one. We are on this whole other level of understanding with each other. We just get each other and love each other. He wrote me this sweet note for Valentine's day. It made me cry it was so adorable and so moving- he really does love me :}
I love you Mr. Baker! I can't wait for what tomorrow brings!

Job Ugh. This is the department I struggle in. I have never really found a job that makes me happy. I know that jobs don't always bring that and sometimes you just have to do stuff you don't want to do but I can't even find one right now. That's how bad it is. I have applied for ANY and EVERY job out there! Economy is terrible.... UGHHHHHH!!!!

To sum it up: L I F E = L O V E. I'm having a great time and enjoying my life. I love it!

Tomorrow is going to be a ton of fun! I am going to some party with my friend Amy! Talk to you all soon!

Q: what's your favorite drink? A: mine is Dr. Pepper!

LOVE ♥

February Birthdays

2010-02-04T14:42:00.002-05:00

So my birthday is coming up; February 22nd. What should I do for it? I live in a place where February is cold but I want to look cute and have a cute- themed- party. What should I do?

LOVE ♥

Is down in the dumps

2010-02-03T00:48:00.002-05:00

I need a job... I literally need it. Not for the the money- not for the distraction- (of course those are minor needs) but I need it for the fact that I am getting sick; migraines.... Depressed feelings (not depressed)... I am.... Ugh.

LOVE ♥

Movie Bust

2010-02-01T00:58:00.021-05:00

The other night my friends and I saw Legions. It was TERRIBLE. One of the worst movies I have seen in a very long time. The movie was so terrible that when the ending fight scene started- I decided that going to the bathroom and not holding it anymore was more important. Shows how terrible a movie really is when missing the ending isn't a big deal. HA. I don't recomend it and for anyone who liked it... Please tell me why?

As for Saturday night- I was going to wear that yellow dress (as shown below) but I just felt it was too summery. I ended up wearing my blue and white dress with a sweater and those brown heals. I didn't end up wearing the leggings with the outfit when I went out- which was FREEZING btw. The weather this weekend was around 22 degrees. Bleh. I did have an 'alcohol blanket' though so I was ok. :)

I also may have a future job lined up which would be very nice! Someone at our church has a few connections with the banking industry so I am hoping I will land something soon. Cross your fingers and pray for me please! ♥

Need help!?!?!!

2010-01-29T01:03:00.007-05:00

So I've got this idea in my head of what I want to wear on Saturday. It isn't a huge event or anything really special- but I really wanted to look cute and feel good in what I wear on Saturday! I found this dress (see below) that I really like... The image doesn't give it justice and I wont be wearing leggings with it as shown in the photo. I also wanted to wear my hair curly; possibly (I have very long hair). I found it today while shopping on bardstown road at a local shop called General Eccentric. Such a cute find! I was thinking I'd wear it with brown shoes that look a little like the picture below too... What accessories should I wear?

Ps: How was everyones week? :)

Computer Case

2010-01-26T03:34:00.002-05:00

I saw this on someone else's blog- I LOVE IT!

In this letter

2010-01-25T03:56:00.003-05:00

This is a letter or say 'note' I wrote to Will :)

Hey babe,

I just wanted to send you a message to let you know I’ve been thinking about you all night and how happy I am with you and how happy you make me. Thinking back on the past makes me smile. You know how you always have those memories that stick out in your mind more than others? Like the time we had an amazing date night and we sat on my porch. You were trying so hard to tell me that you wanted to date me. Or the time you invited me to Terri’s daughters wedding as your date; I danced with your grandpa and got to spend all day with you. I meet your entire family that night and I’m pretty sure they approved! I remember when you asked me to be your girlfriend. We were sitting at Prime Lounge drinking wine- you turned to me and whispered in my ear all night about how you love being with me and how I am perfect for you. You casually whispered to me “I really want you to be my girlfriend. I wanted to tell you the night we sat on your porch but I just didn’t get the courage to say it because I thought you were trying to avoid me asking. I don't want anyone else to have you. I want you to be mine.” I was never avoiding that question. Even if it seemed so- I was scared, but I had wanted you to ask since we were talking in August. I was smiling all night :). I remember the time your mom told me that when she sees you with me; she sees your happiness, true happiness. And the time Terri told me on your birthday that when she sees you look at me she sees love! I also remember clearly the first time you told me you loved me. You were so true to your feelings; I’ve never felt that kind of love. Sure I’ve been told; “I love you” but yours was much different- I felt it as you said it… I just love how we can talk for hours on end or just sit in silence; that we completely understand each other on all levels. When I think of you- I smile, I blush, I feel loved; You’re the ideal guy for any girl and I am so lucky that there wont be “any girl” just one girl.

Every day that goes by;
Every memory that we make;
I am so blessed to have you Will. You’ve made me so happy. To our random talks about the day or something funny to our more serious talks about our future and how much we love each other. You’re everything to me and I wouldn’t change one thing about us, you, me, or what is to come. I love you William Thomas Baker.
-xoxo Kaala

FEVER. TIRED. SICK.

2010-01-19T23:46:00.001-05:00

Is so sick....

The art of thinking...

2010-01-19T03:38:00.002-05:00

I sat around all day today and just thought about different things from future life to currents jobs. I'm going to try and make this post as positive as possible and as non-jibberish as possible since it is almost 4AM and I am for some reason still up. Life has been very different lately. I feel like my approach to life is much different and my parents approach at life is getting different as well. My mom has not been nice to me at all... She has such a short temper with me and for some reason; we can never get along. She's constantly knocking me down and pulling me down mentally and physically... It's sad but I've begun to just ignore her since the only thing I can really take from what she tells me is negativity and if I recall.... I don't want that. Any who....

Job life has been a drag... Not that I am complaining- I know I'll find a good job and I know I'll be employed soon but I cannot stand not working. Not just because of the lack of income but mainly the lack of feeling important. When you have a job you feel so important and you feel so alive and the day seems more worthwhile (I'm lacking that right now). I asked my boyfriend Will if he could ask around Surepoint to see if they need a processor... I was a loan officer (mortgage loan officer) for First Liberty a little while ago but it was just commission pay... Yikes.... I needed more than commission pay. Processors are on hourly pay- so- I hope it'll work out! :}

Will was really sick today :/ . ON HIS BIRTHDAY NON THE LESS.... Ugh! How terrible!!!! I felt really bad for him- to spend his birthday in bed all day. I'm pretty sure he feels better. We didn't speak much today due to him sleeping all day and feeling bad. On Saturday I baked him a cake, and made him a giant Louisville Cardinals card! (as seem below in the previous post) I also bought him a very cute shirt and picture frame. After he opened his gifts we went to Outback (MMMM!) It was SO good.... His birthday was almost perfect....

Sorry... Getting random- I've been so A-D-D all day. Watching Ninja Warrior right now... Nothing to do, harassed all day, and boreddd! I need a job... Any who- to sign off please place your prayers in Haiti... They'll need all they can get.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM B.

2010-01-18T16:19:00.002-05:00

Happy Birthday Will T. Baker! <3 xoxo

Is REALLY annoyed.

2010-01-18T16:13:00.001-05:00

There are certain people in my life- who I see everyday who're so rude to me and so disrespectful it makes me sick. To not support me not thank me not tell me I am doing great not tell me you love to see me or that you're happy I am around; ETC. How rude can you be?! You make me hate being at home you make me hate being your daughter. You try and force your faith onto me you try and force your thinking onto me. I'M 24 YEARS OLD. You don't ever congratulate me, you don't say how proud of me you are, you don't ever say ANYTHING positive. I am just a negative burden to you and I am just an error and a "thing" that is in the way. To be rude about my job, to be rude about my boyfriend, to constantly be so negative and disrespectful to me everyday with no hesitation. You treat me differently than my other brothers and you make me wonder if you even want me around.

You make me so unhappy.

:}

2010-01-13T23:22:00.001-05:00

posted from her iphone

New iPhone

2010-01-12T11:57:00.000-05:00

I just got a new phone. Not because I really wanted a new phone but because I was forced to have an already broken phone. The ball on my blackberry was loose and finally was lost after having that phone for over 2-3 years.... Poor blackberry... I went to go get another one and what do you know! New rule.... Required with all blackberries, palms, and iphones you must have internet- really? So I broke down and purchased a phone with internet.

IT'S SNOWING SO MUCH!!!

2010-01-09T15:49:00.000-05:00

Let it snow!

I'm such a lucky person- blessed & happy

2010-01-06T23:54:00.001-05:00

I am so proud of you, William Baker. You're an amazing person and I know you're going to be wonderful at your job. You're actually already doing REALLY well and I am so happy for you. You're such a kind and caring person- you amaze me. Will; talking to you on the phone tonight made me feel so loved and so happy- you're an amazing guy and an amazing boyfriend. I have no idea why you choose me.... You're such a beautiful person with a big heart and strong feelings. You make me want to be a better person- to achieve things higher than myself- to be everything I was meant to be in this life.

I want to do it all with you by my side.

You're everything I've ever wanted and everything I've ever needed. You're all I think about and all that I want in the future- I hope that I find a job soon for the sake of feeling productive... And to make you proud. I love you Will; I truly, deeply love you with the deepest part of my heart and I hope your dreams tonight are sweeter than ever... ♥

What's going on?

2010-01-05T20:46:00.001-05:00

I feel lonely today... & I don't like it...

Determined to be Successful

2010-01-05T01:39:00.000-05:00

I believe I found a job; A teller at US Bank- perhaps? We'll see here in the next few days. Pray for me and wish me luck... I'm going to need it....

Job Huntin'

2010-01-03T16:39:00.001-05:00

Job hunting! Wish me luck! :)

2010

2010-01-03T15:37:00.001-05:00

I forgot to post on Christmas eve and Christmas- as well as New Years eve and New Years :( ~~Sorry! Merry -late- Christmas! & Happy New Year! Welcome 2010~ This year will be even more amazing!!!!!!

For Christmas, Will surprised me with flowers and a card. I had no idea! I was very surprised and VERY happy! Look how beautiful those flowers are!

Wow. It's already 2010. This year has been quite amazing. A lot of things in my life have changed; for bad and for the good. I have an amazing boyfriend who I am so thankful for! He is the ideal guy for me; he's for sure my one and only!!! :}

I also have the understanding of what basically matters in life right now. I have amazing friends and family. My life is pretty content- the only issues I really go through are some 'minor' family problems and the most common- WORK. I always have issues with work. Not really enjoying First Liberty anymore- due to the fact that I'm not very good at it and I've been there for 3 months and haven't really made anything.... Not motivating.

We rented a cabin this weekend for New Years. It was so much fun! Spending 3 full days with my friends and boyfriend in the woods with hot
tubs, laughs, and kisses!!! It was amazing!

New Years Resolutions

to be more patient
to be more aware of how I treat others
to be the best girlfriend he's ever had
to make changes in the lives of others
to put God into everything
to be more respectful
to be more understanding
to be healthier
to lose 10 lbs
to get a job that suits me

God is Great.

2009-12-20T22:19:00.000-05:00

Wow... So just a few days ago my little brother was in a car accident. Posted below are photos of his accident. I am so thankful that God was looking out for him. This whole situation could of been a lot worse. I am also thankful for the middle head-on collision catchers in the middle of the road separating the on coming traffic. God... You're great, thank you.

We aren't sure if his car is even fixable due to a lot of damage done to the right side only. His axles are broken and his car door air bag deployed. Lets just say, it isn't drivable. We'll find out shortly if he can get it fixed.

I am so glad you're ok Aric... & I love you♥

This whole week, 2 weeks however long has been so stressful. On top of things... I got way to intoxicated last night due to stupid reasons and was not myself today. We had our KY family Christmas today. It was pretty good. I love seeing the family and the kiddos but I felt better once I had a conversation with a certain boy just an hour ago.

We also got to read this adorable lover letter my grandfather wrote to my grandmother... It made me cry it was so sweet. She had told him prior she never in her life had received a love letter from anyone so my grandpa made her the cutest love letter about how beautiful she is and how much he loves her. My grandfather was the ideal man; my grandmother was so happy. I miss them...

Motivation

2009-12-15T17:36:00.001-05:00

Yesterday I really felt the motivation.

I usually just do crunches or push ups, or just run outside, or run on the running machine downstairs but last night I went out of my comfort zone. I did what is called the 'Wii Fit.' It actually made me sore today... So I guess I must be doing something right. Felt good to hardcore work out for an hour straight. The nice thing about Wii Fit is you can set goals and time limits. I actually have a 'fake' trainer who tells me what to do. He's mean :)

I submited two loans today as well. That meanss!!! I have 3 loans submitted and I'm getting paid tomorrow for the loan that was closed last week. Pretty neat! Today though... Was insaine... I worked really hard today- hopefully this other file can be submited even though he missed out on the special fee we were running.

We'll see.

Wish me luck.

I am in pain :)
The good kind of pain

It's been way toooooo long! :)

2009-12-14T02:39:00.000-05:00

Wow. Long time no blog! I'm not sure why I stop and then blog, and then stop, and then blog. I really need to keep up with it. i used to blog all the time, from 2003 till last year; not sure why I've stopped. Any who...

To update on life.... I am now working at a new job. I am a loan officer for a mortgage company and I love it. I love it a lot more than what I received my degree in. It was really hard for the first month since it is jut commission but I am past that first month and I get the concept now so things are looking up! I should be closing 6 loans by Tuesday!

As for my love life... Lets just say... :}

I cannot wait for Christmas to get here. It really snuck up on me, it doesn't feel like it's almost here. So weird. I attended a Christmas party the other night with my company; it was a lot of fun!!! Will was a party / singing machine! It was hilarious and great and SO much fun!!! I love being with him :}

We also went out this weekend which was very entertaining. I got lost heading to a friends house and while I was turning around to head in the right direction I pulled into a gas station to change routes and all of a sudden a cop pulls up in the parking lot next to the gas station and gets out with a shotgun!!! .... He LOADS the shotgun as he's walking into the store, I immediately turn out of there, while driving away from whatever was going on there- another cop pealed out into the gas station soon after. WTH!?! Scary.... Not sure what was going on...

But lol, I finally got to Charlee's house and we went out to Hard Rock Cafe and then to 4th street! Fun, Fun!!!

OH life.

2009-08-27T00:34:00.000-04:00

Life.

Phew :)

I am some what enjoying it greatly right now. I'm not enjoying the work load & the way I'm treated & I'm not enjoying the fact my dad is out of a job... again... but I have faith in God & faith that he'll take care of these very minor 'problems'. I am enjoying the talking of a certain someone, although I am not sure where it is going- & this scares me because of all of the previous disappointments. Again, having faith.

Jean's birthday is this weekend & I am so excited for her! My time with her is counting down & this makes me SOOOO sad. I don't want her to move to Organ. I'm going to miss her so much. But I am cherishing what little time I have with her! Her birthday is going to be so awesome :) we are all wearing jeans for JEAN'S birthday, bahahaha! Clever, huh? <3

School is put on hold... I think.... IDK.... Gah...

Life is so random & complicated right now, I just wish something I wanted would happen so that I felt like something was going right. AGAIN... GAH- FAITH, I'm just going to keep pounding that in my head. FAITH. <3

Independence Day

2009-07-05T18:12:00.000-04:00

Happy 4th of July!

(sorry, one day behind!!!... Ran out of gas on the jet ski)

"Happy Fat Day"

2009-06-22T05:26:00.000-04:00

Happy Fathers Day!

Back to Schoooool

2009-05-31T21:27:00.000-04:00

Update:

Went to Six Flags today, it was fun!

Got a call from my boss, I'm moving to the hot line!

So I've decided ...

I'm going to go back to school. I've been contemplating whether or not I want to go back for a different degree. Don't get me wrong, I love Culinary & I'm sure I'll keep using it whether or not I do get another degree but my passion for it is growing colder each work day for it. Culinary is fun, food is enjoyable, but I don't so much like to work in the food industry. So I've been thinking ...

Maybe I'll go get a degree in Education? An elementary educational degree to each elementary English. If I get a degree in that, I might possibly be able to teach over in Japan. Teaching in Japan, or should I say, just being in Japan would be such a fulfillment in life! Oh how I love everything Japan. Even if it wasn't something permanent, I'd at least fulfill a dream of being in Japan. We'll see how things pan out.... I hope all works out & as I look up more information on education, I hope it'll all work out in the end.

Love IT.

2009-05-26T00:32:00.000-04:00

I love family

2009-05-24T18:14:00.001-04:00

My whole entire family is over today :)

They make me smile. Everyone is always so happy & somewhat carefree. Even when there is a problem they all somehow manage to fight through it & place God into the equation & have Him take care of them. I love that feeling ... Knowing there is someone always there for you- always watching you- always loving you. How awesome?

Speaking of God... & acting in his shadow... & following Him & showing his love to people the way He wants me to do it. I've been thinking about this a lot & contemplating how I'll be able to accomplish this ... How hard is it to follow someone so perfect? We have a series at church going on called 'not a fan.' (http://www.notafan.com) It basically is a way of saying

Fan: an enthusiastic admirer

Not a fan: a true commitment

"I don't want to be a fan of Jesus Christ, but I want to be a committed follower of God."

How amazing it would be if we weren't fans, but actually followers! I strive for this, & I want this. The only way to achieve this is to not look at it as "I'm trying to do this" or "I want this" but to die everyday for God. To take up a cross every single day & die! That is going to take a lot of work to accomplish... But, with commitment & Christian family & friends, I am going to do it!

Striving Accomplishments:

To always be positive
To always love
To always have God w/me
To always rely on God
To never doubt Gods grace & word
To never let others influence me away from God
To never set an unGodly example for others

Pray. <3

Girl, oh Girl

2009-05-19T21:03:00.000-04:00

Hello World! hey all :)

I finally started blogging once again! A brief over view of my blogging life... 2002-2008 I blogged & blogged & blogged my life & consistently quit blogging. I need to get back into it- it was always an escape & always a way that I felt others could read how I felt without myself having to constantly explain myself. So, an update...

1) I am single
2) I was laid off & now have a new job at Lynn's
3) I have been hanging out w/the coolest girls on the Earth!
4) My dad lost his job & lives in Cinci for his new job & visits on weekends
5) My older brother is finally on his last year of college, lol the 7 year plan
6) My little brother is in love :) ♥
7) I am loving & enjoying life w/all I possibly can
8) Left 4 Dead
9) I am so very happy & content :)

Updated much? Lets see if I can keep this blogging consistent! SEE you soon!